DIYANAH's

2012-01-28T03:59:00.001-08:00

CANNOT FREAKING WAIT TO FREAKING GRADUATE. ^^

2012-01-07T22:30:00.000-08:00

HOLIDAYS

2011-12-20T06:20:00.000-08:00

School holiday for 1 month & so far i've been out for 2 days. No choice, i got a grandmother to take care off.

Bad dream + alone time

2011-12-05T06:42:00.001-08:00

Had the worst dream so far, that i can remember off. I hate the dream so much that i force myself to wake up. I don't want to repeat the dream, i don't want it to come true. I hate it so much. So I woke up at about 9.40am and decided to do some shopping. Showered and went out at about 10.40am. It's the first time that i went out alone. It was kinda fun. Just walking without talking. Took the free shuttle bus, reached sembawang and guess what some shops were not even open! LOL! see la, hurry for what but still i just want to get out of the house. Went to giant first, walk around, bought croissant my favorite. After that all shops were open, went to body shop to exchange things. Then shop at daiso for 2 hours. lol. Spend $14 in there. Bought alot of cute stuff. After that decided to go home. Then at home start all those normal things~

잘자요

Good & Bad Day...

2011-12-04T08:08:00.001-08:00

Went out with mom to the market to buy some groceries in the morning and also in the afternoon had fun going out with mom & sister/bestfriend today, it's been so long since we went out together. Mom treated me & my sister things we wanted cause she wanted to do nice things for us since both of us did quite alot during the one month she was at hajj. I got the bag i always wanted & my sister got her favorite things at body shop. She like those kind of things, lol. Went to shop around at daiso, giant. I got my favorite croissant while my sister wanted this chocolate, pudding bread. Mine was better, lol, but her things were more expensive. Went home quickly cause my brother preparing to go to camp already.

Then at night when my sister showed my her perfume, sigh.... so...I don't really know how not to use my strength so i decided to not use too much force and and and and and i accidentally accidentally accidentally accidentally, i really don't know to how open the thing, already ask her to open for me, but she told me to open myself so as i open it slowly, i freaking got no idea how the while thing come out. I really got no idea, i really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really got not idea. So now she's mad at me, the thing can't be fixed. I feel so bad, ya la, i'm always the bad person. I feel so bad, and the perfume is not so cheap! sigh, i want to jump down already. Can i please turn back the time. Pretty please........................................................................ hope she won't be mad at me for long........... :(((((((((((((((

Side-track, i just cannot wait to graduate cause higher nitec is probably the 가장 나쁜.
but then again, if graduate already want to do what ar? I already plan ahead that i'm not continuing school. I don't want to go to poly. So work is the only choice. I want to support my mom & dad so that, they won't have to work. They are getting older & both are eating medicine everyday. So finding a stable job isn't easy, but still... i have to try.

아프 & 피곤해 of always taken advantage.
아프 & 피곤해 of always stuck with all this
아프 & 피곤해 of not knowing the next step.
아프 & 피곤해 of not having true 사람들 around.
아프 & 피곤해 of all this drama in my life. i don't go around telling people, but there's still things happening around which I don't like.
아프 & 피곤해 of always, hoping that one day my life would turn out to be fine. Like those korean drama i've watch.

But still.....
i'm still thankful with what i have. My family. My bestfriend/sister. My mom. My dad.
I'm lucky to have a sister whose not only my sibling but my bestfriend. Thankful that she's always there for me. Thankful for my mom for being the number 1 mom in the world, happy that she's already a hajjah, her long time dream, she's done it. Now she's saving to go with my dad. She want to go there again. :) My dad, though sometimes his... well not here, but still i love my dad and my other siblings. :)))

My mom always say, "whatever happens, family always comes first"

2011-12-02T07:03:00.001-08:00

When you give too much kindness to others and they take advantage of you, that is what i'm seriously sick off. Whatever you post on twitter, facebook are just to show off to people that you are this & that, but your not. Too much kindness can kill. I hate being taken advantage. You disgust me, like really, i'm so disgusted by you. YOU MAKE ME SICK.

EVERYTHING IS JUST SO WRONG!

2011-11-14T04:27:00.001-08:00

2011-11-07T05:48:00.000-08:00

Like a child full of wonder, gaze into mysteries of your inner life.

Insight

2011-11-06T06:18:00.000-08:00

You are unable to maintain total control over your own schedule now, for your family may not cooperate as you expect. Even if you are upset because your plans falls through today, don't shift the blame to anyone else. No matter how it appears to you, no one is trying to sabotage your efforts. It may come as a surprise, but the cause of your own instability is, you. - capricorn

I miss my mama.

2011-10-31T07:04:00.000-07:00

So have not been updating my blog much. Been, well.. busy? Some sort. Been busy missing my mom.

26 October 2011:

Send my mom to the airport crying, till my eyes were bloodshot red. Me and my other 2 sisters and my paternal grandmother took the taxi and meet the rest at the airport terminal 3. My dad drove his car with my mom, brother and maternal grandmother. All the others drove their own cars and my neighbor was kind enough to lend his car to my uncle.

Only my maternal side of the family and 4 other friends send my mom off, while the other side was not that, well not shocking there. I couldn't stop crying from home till the airport. My sister said my eyes were really red. I couldn't let go of my mom. I just wanted to hug her long. My other 2 sisters were all crying, all of our eyes were really red, mine was super red. My dad, maternal grandmother, and uncles were crying. When it was time for my mom to go, me and my sister couldn't stop, just couldn't stop crying. We wave till can't see my mom anymore. My eldest sister even told me to stop crying already but the tears just can't stop falling. When all of us were about to go home, my mom called said they were waiting for asar.

I'm too lazy to type everything down, just that i really cried so much and my eyes were swollen that i didn't go to school the next day, my dad even allow me to 'poteng' school cause he know ill cry in school.

So far she has called 2 times, cause it's expensive to call. She also text. She's fine there, alhamdulillah. IREALLYMISSMYMOMSOVERYMUCH. :(

and i really appreciate rebecca and shyryn for texting me those sweet messages. While izora text to say cheer up. Really thanks guys. :')

School/Project update:

Have not been going to school much, like really this term is the worse. I have not been missing school this much before. Cause school is just too B-O-R-I-N-G. Everyone is like doing their own stuff. My group mates have this project called Wise & $Wise challenge that we are organizing. Believe it or not, me organizing an event. It really is not the type of event i would love to do in the future but it's worth a try. The experience on organizing an event. At first it was really confusing, the event, the boardgame, everything. I'm slow at understanding things, but now i understand what it is all about, but the boardgame is still confusing. Only me and rebecca don't quite understand, hahaha! that is why we are call dumb. Now everything is quite stressful, i can feel the burden already, shyryn confirm feel double the burden cause she's the project manager. The leader. I understand that she got no choice but to pressure all of us ^^ since she's being pressure all the time by her. So far we have emailed all school but NO SCHOOL replied, texted or call us yet. So we are planning to call atleast 20 - 30 schools tomorrow. The project is quite exciting. Since we are the one organizing this event & representing ITE. hehe. NURUL DIYANAH REPRESENTING THE WHOLE OF ITE, well of course not me alone. :D

This is really the first event im organizing and it's a MAJOR event. I'm really scared that it won't be a successful one cause i know we are delaying time, and time is money but i have to admit my groupmates are really trying. We have never organize a major event before. I'm quite slow in understanding stuff, but really am trying my best, so im actually quite thankful to shyryn for letting me join the project though, i know she knows that i quite slow. I really pray that this event would be a successful one. I want to see us in newspapers, televisions and headlines like 'CREATIFS POSSIBLE TEAM FROM ITE CENTRAL SUCCESS IN DOING THE WISE & $WISE CHALLENGE EVENT. CONGARTULATIONS' LOL!

heheh, well it's not wrong to imagine.

I LOVE MY MAMA

2011-10-21T08:36:00.000-07:00

So, ive been lazy to update. Not like there's alot of readers. Been super busy with school projects, it's like i have already started 'working' in events, so if projects are already like this, what about when i really start working? Can you even imagine, but the project is not the events i would like to do when i'm an working adult but it's a good experience so why not give it a try, right? So i have not been attending school that often cause it's boring and waking up at 8am but i really do love the subject DSG. I love designing stuff using the computer since i ain't good in real life drawing. So yeah, that's about school stuff, i would love to get into details but i'm just too lazy and tired. Followed my mom to go shopping for stuff at geylang after school. So guess what when i alight at paya lebar i was lost since i get off the wrong side, then i'm like where am i? Luckily someone invented handphones and i was able to contact my mom and finally make my long way to meet her. So it was fun and tiring at the same time cause only buy her stuff, but since she will be going for 1 month. :( I bet when she's gone to haji,, ill will be a miserable kid and miss her everyday. I must really prepare myself since it's 1 whole month and she's going there alone. When she visited umrah for 2 weeks i already cried till my eyes were really red and my dad have to calm me down. Cannot stop crying and when she call i cried again. okay i'm really tired right now cause help my mom do some packing till 10+ and tomorrow have to wake up early cause this weekends gonna be super busy with people visiting and i got no idea when i'm gonna do my school work. bye.

2011-09-19T09:48:00.000-07:00

Day 1

Holiday

2011-09-17T07:47:00.000-07:00

Holiday seems okay, since it's only the first week. Won't be expecting much for the first week. Hoping to go out karaoke, shopping i want to check out the new store H&M at town. There's formula 1 this Friday, excited to see GD & TOP and SUENGRI. It's gonna be awesome just like korean music wave, jumping up and down, dancing and screaming. Cannot wait for next week. Next week gonna be fun, cannot wait to dress up. Need new clothes, shorts, cardigan & accessories. Also my hair seriously need to grow. Please grow fast fast okay, need you to be longer.

yup, i get it already. I'm not losing weight already. You just cannot stop me from eating though

STUFF I WANT WANT WANT WANT WANT!!!!

yeah, so basically i would love to have many many clothes and be skinny like all this girls, but too bad i ain't rich and i'm a lazy ass.

WITH THE PEOPLE I LOVE

2011-08-31T09:51:00.000-07:00

HARI RAYA PICTURES 2011

As you can see below, here are some of the photos during the first day of raya. There is still photos in my facebook. So if you guys are interested in my beautiful family, please do see. Some of it is in my aunt's facebook and her facbook is private so, boo-hoo. This Saturday everyone is coming over to my house, so more family photos will be taken on the Saturday, this time everyone will be in it. So do look forward to it. <3 Did not take photo using our camera, since my uncle got this very very powerful camera which is very expensive. So more beautiful pictures will be taken using that camera. ^^

Over

2011-08-24T02:57:00.000-07:00

Today is so weird, for me. Cause I don't know why i got this weird dream that i'll be late for VM presentation and everyone just left me. My group mates didn't cared about me and they just left me........The dream was like so real, it was quite sad cause i know i woke up sad and the feeling of just rushing. It was so hectic this morning, i thought i've set my alarm clock to 7.45AM and when i woke up, it was 9.45AM!!! School starts at 9. I won't even bother if it's just normal school day, but it's VM presentation, i showered for 2 minutes i think. Before that called and text shyryn cause i know she's sleeping also. I don't know how fast i was, that my head was like abt to burst, came out of the house around 9.55. MAGIC! thank god that shyryn's dad drive us to school, If not i think that's it for us. We were just in the nick of time. I was quite happy with my presentation cause i for the first i was not nervous and there was no script so I don't know how i managed to blurt out all those magical words out my mouth.

Now that all project is over, just left with exams, which i am so not prepared.

I just want time to turn back please? So i can re-think everything properly before joining the course.

Exams

2011-08-22T08:30:00.000-07:00

Just....

2011-08-19T07:58:00.000-07:00

She's ugly?

Tell me, what's the definition of beauty?

You don't know their true story?

Easy, don't judge.

One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter.

cause sometimes those feelings just come by itself and i really need to stop making things get to complicated for me cause i know in the end nothing will ever come true for me. Things I've imagine happening just doesn't happen. I wish i could be exactly what you have been looking for.

2011-08-16T09:42:00.000-07:00

I feel so sad~ i'm trying my hard. I'm already trying my best.

2011-08-10T09:12:00.001-07:00

created tumblr >> NDiyanah.tumblr.com

check it out. ^^

2011-08-10T07:45:00.000-07:00

updates

2011-08-09T08:13:00.000-07:00

Long weekend,there's school on Monday and it's only celebration, so i cannot be bothered. I would rather stay home and sleep & sleeping was amazing woke up at 2.30. Did not do much, just stay home and i love it. Break fast with family. Finally i terawih today at home, of course dad was the imam, he always is, well i was the imam once when i was in secondary 2, i think, cause i really wanted to try. Well, my family always pray together when it's the fasting month, mostly subuh & maghrib. This past few days i've been craving for alot alot alot alot of food. Kept google-ing the pictures. Everything looks so nice. Want to eat everything. NO SCHOOL is amazing, it's like finally i can breath. There's school tomorrow, of course. sigh. Then doing that project after school. double sigh. I cannot wait till we finish every project, it's like urgh! I haven't even start studying. No worries, like i said 9 MORE FREAKING MONTHS.

2011-08-09T07:58:00.000-07:00

I’m trying to smile brightly but
I don’t like it
I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful
Oh oh oh oh x 2

I’m trying to sing but
No one is listening
I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful
Oh oh oh oh x 2

Why am I this ugly
What must I do for me to be able to smile brightly like you?

I’m getting angry again, why can’t I ever be perfect
I simply put the blame on my ugly appearance
In this broken mirror

Don’t look at me, I hate this feeling right now
I want to hide away somewhere, I want to escape
This world is full of lies

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

Don’t tell me that you can understand me so easily
My ugly and crooked heart may even come to resent you
Don’t force me to talk, I’m not right for you
The cold thorns inside that patronizing gaze suffocate me

Don’t come closer, I don’t even want your concern
I want to leave away to somewhere, I want to shout out
This world is full of lies

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

All alone
I’m all alone x 2

There is no such thing as warmth
There is no one by my side

All alone
I’m all alone x 2
I’m always alone

There’s no such thing as warmth
Next to my side, there’s not even anyone to embrace me

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be prety
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

2011-08-06T05:59:00.000-07:00

Guess it's only me know huh? Well, i don't really care, seriously, cause I know some people would finally appreciate me.

Misses :'(

2011-08-02T07:50:00.000-07:00

My Nitec Girls

2011-08-02T07:16:00.000-07:00

오늘은 힘든 하루입니다.

그것이 더 얻을 수있는 방법은 없습니다.

사람들이 나에 대해서 신경 쓸 거 얼마든지.

Patience.

It’s only a few months.

Fasting Month

2011-07-30T07:31:00.000-07:00

Fasting month is getting near. This year raya won't be that big as the past years because of some things happening for my father side, I won't even call them my family no more. They do not deserve to see my nenek this year raya. No point asking for forgiveness. Since my mom going for haji this year, alone. Everybody in my family got no mood for raya. This year raya gonna be small. No new clothes. So if i wear the same clothes going out with my friends, i hope everyone understands. During fasting month, i'm gonna try losing weight, cause i'm sick and tired of everyone commenting on my body. The same old comment every time, from my friends, family. This month i'm really gonna try. So August I hope you will the month but fasting is gonna be the same, sahur is still gonna be the same, hard to wake up, don't feel like eating. After that gonna solat with family, do the same every year, pray together for Subur & Marghrib. Then go tarawih.

2011-07-29T23:39:00.001-07:00

Class Chalet

2011-07-26T07:28:00.000-07:00

Guess class chalet was much more better than last year.

2011-07-20T07:17:00.000-07:00

Have been learning how to do this for so long, but i just don't get how it's done. Really want to learn how to do this, its just so hard for me.

2011-07-18T07:25:00.000-07:00

I'm gonna update on the best Korean concert ever later on, maybe a few day time. Kinda lazy to update everything now. I'm just gonna say that every minute on the concert was amazing. It still haven't hit me that i just saw 2NE1 & BIG BANG live. Everyone was amazing! ^^Miss A, U-KISS, X-5, THE BOSS, TEEN TOP, DAL SHABET, FT. ISLAND & TOUCH. <3

I love the song & the lyrics.

Friends

2011-07-14T02:09:00.000-07:00

Mona Lisa

2011-07-13T05:23:00.000-07:00

2011-07-11T00:21:00.000-07:00

First off, i tried to pull of center parting hairstyle.

Fail huh? I don't suit center parting.

Just some things

2011-07-09T22:37:00.000-07:00

Picture Day

2011-07-07T00:12:00.000-07:00

So i was bored at home, decided to take photos of myself. ^^ but at the end took only four..

2011-07-06T05:47:00.000-07:00

Jannah, Can't we all just get along? Like seriously? What so hard? Stop posting bad things about OUR family on twitter. Stop calling your own mom FUCK. STOP! After eating wash your dishes. You know mama tired after work what. You should know, you are working, tired right? Imagine you have to feed you family after work. You have to cook for your family. You must know mama penat pe. Who love doing the chorus? Nobody, really. I hate it too, but i'm doing it cause mama is tired. I help around. Stop showing off to your friends that our family is retarded. Cause they will believe what you type on your twitter. They don't know anything. They are strangers to me. They got no idea what you are like at home. Your are L-A-Z-Y, who got no respect for your parents at all, macam mana mama, afiqah tk marah. Really, how are we not angry. Your birthday is on the 8th July. Do you have any idea that me and afiqah are planning something for you!? Really, now i dont feel like doing anything for you already. You must really control your temper it suck. Really. Every time you get angry even though its your own fault. You always talk about how nenek children suck, but are you helping? You always talk. No help.

Afiqah, i don't know what to talk about you, but i really dislike your attitude. it suck big time. You got no idea that i'm helping around the house alot of time. Just that when i'm doing it you are not home, well, nobody is home. That is when i love doing the chorus. Nobody to distract me. I'm done typing cause what's the use. I don't think we are gonna be a happy family after all.......

I want

2011-07-06T01:35:00.000-07:00

2011-07-06T01:17:00.001-07:00

I. SERIOUSLY. HATE. IT. WHEN. SOMEONE. TAKES. MY. FOOD. WITHOUT. MY. FUCKING. PERMISSION. EVEN. THOUGH. IT'S. CHEAP. IT'S. STILL. MY. FOOD!

Today

2011-07-05T04:22:00.000-07:00

Went to eat pastamania today,

ordered the and well the portion for the spaghetti was little but thank god i was full after eating both. It's nice, should go eat there again, soon. I'm also like totally broke. Spend $50+ today, including the food, after eating went party world for 3 hours, it was fun cause my voice became so husky and i rock at singing today. Totally love how i sound now. After that we went to popular and i bought new earpiece one blue and the other pink, buy 1 get one free! ^^ then we went around i decided to enter cotton on and I bought this dress @ $29.95. I'm in love with it. It's black and i'm totally in love with it. Gonna wear it on Thursday. Gonna catch transfomers and maybe catch up a little?

story of my life

2011-07-04T09:28:00.000-07:00

Gonna let you readers know the story of my life, well not exactly. I'm gonna blog cause i got no idea what to do. We have 3 weeks of holiday but i have not been fun, cause mostly i've been lazing around at home and believe it i only been out ONCE and that is for project. Tried working out once following this video:

was very proud of myself cause i did not stop! was sweating and was really proud of myself. Thought of doing it everyday. So the next day when my dad woke me up to go shower my nenek I cannot get up! My leg was in alot of pain like seriously. It hurts alot but i tried to wake up and i was in alot of pain walking. The pain last for 3 days. So my fucking plan for working out everyday failed cause my leg hurts alot and i got fever and sore throat due to the pain. So i decided to stop working out and not fucking care about how my body decide to grow.... meybe. So i regret wasting my hoilday lazing around. This is the last week of hoilday i regretted alot for wasting it just like that, i could have learn korean. My sister got this book and papers she borrowed from her friend. So i wish i could turn back the time now.

but too bad, im wasted it already, can shoot me now. Well August there's this new korean group called B1A4

coming to Singapore, really want to see them especially CNU but not money, i wish i could just

Oh well, maybe next time. I'm so looking forward to KOREAN MUSIC WAVE this 15 JULY! It's going to be

cause there's gonna be

well, i'm not really looking forward to them but oh well

not looking forward to them also, AND THE LONG AWAITED! I'M REALLY LOOKING FROWARD TO THIS 2 GROUPS! THERE ARE

but daesung wont be attending cause of some accident in korean involving him :( and they wont be singing big bang song they will be singing their solo. But it's gonna be fun! gonna be so much fun! Realling looking froward for

ill be going with my sister we purchase the seated ticket. I also want go for

concert, heard that he will be coming this August. I want to go cause i find him hot. hah.

so finally i make plans with shyryn

tomorrow, like finally im going out but only in yishun but well i have to fetch my nenek okay. i could tell you about my family problems but i'm not gonna too cause i'm gonna start getting angry and you don't want me getting angry right?

oh ya saw nickhun and victoria kissed? yes they finally did it.

Junho also kissed! but it was a kid at their fan meet session in korea

hahaha, cute and i was jealous. hmph. wished that was me. heee. My sister also showed me this funny thing about jay park.

funny? hahaha, well his hot too.

remember too:

hahaha, random? look at all BIG BANG ALBUMS!

and see what they are doing. cute!

2ne1 park bom is my favorite member in 2ne1 hahaha, she's funny!

hahaha, i'm gonna stop blogging now Thanks for reading! YOU ARE AWESOME!

And remember:

meaning I AM THE BEST. ^^

Lastly:

I love fashion but.....

2011-07-04T05:51:00.000-07:00

I'm in love with clothes, clothes make me happy, when i wear nice stuff i feel happy, I feel pretty but i'm just not rich enough to buy alot of them so that make me :( so when i look at pretty stuff/pictures they make me jealous.

2011-06-29T07:37:00.000-07:00

Its always me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me Pissed off? TURN THE MUSIC VOLUME TO THE MAX~

2011-06-28T09:51:00.000-07:00

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2011-06-28T09:25:00.001-07:00

2011-06-26T08:11:00.001-07:00

ALL KPOP STUFF

2011-06-26T08:10:00.000-07:00

2011-06-24T10:30:00.001-07:00

MUSICS

2011-06-24T10:26:00.000-07:00

2011-06-20T05:09:00.000-07:00

I find her one of the most talented korean idol ever! Beside Park Bom of course, I love her voice. ^^

2011-06-18T02:01:00.000-07:00

HOILIDAY! (:

2011-06-09T05:35:00.000-07:00

whatever, i don't care about the korea trip anymore, it's stupid. I'm not even selected for an interview! Well, i don't care, not like all my friends are going anyways, well maybe the two of them, good luck to you guys! ^^ I know one day, i will surely go korea with my AWESOME sister, we are gonna have so much fun there. One day, my dream will come true. We are going to be older, prettier and richer! YAH! hehehehe, thinking about it make me laugh cause it's gonna be SO MUCH fun.

Went out with my favorite person, well wanted to go scape but it's too far and more expensive so we decided to just go yishun, near and quite cheap, but the songs we limited, the korean songs. I want to watch insidious with her tomorrow! PLS AFIQAH! :( The service there suck as per normal, so when the person left WITHOUT giving me back my change so I decided to totally mess up the whole place. :D

2011-06-01T03:45:00.000-07:00

First off it's a BIG SIGH! My craving for Manhattan fish market just go bye bye, ate with the usual at yishun northpoint and my all time favorite fish and chips there taste different. They gave us the snapper fish and everything taste so different, my hungry stomach is so disappointed that I cannot finish and there's alot left, I usually get to finish my food. In the middle of eating I told shyryn that i feel like vomiting. I cannot finish. Thank god there's the guys they finish it for me. ^^ Though i'm kinda disappointed, nehh, it's okay i'm gonna eat again but this time MUST make sure that they give us the correct one which is this:

but the good thing about today is that shyryn and izora rock, hahaha, they are so funny today, we went to shyryn house, did our hair, watch 2 movies and lie down like it's our own home. It was fun, I was funny, hahaha, i even make myself laugh. I cannot keep my mouth shut. It was fun. ^^

2011-05-31T04:31:00.000-07:00

This sentence actually make me laugh out loud! It's cute! I don't want to be one of those girls, like for what? everyone is pretty in their own ways.

2011-05-30T05:06:00.000-07:00

I have been skipping school way to much, I seriously need to stop this bad habit. I'm sick today and yet i didn't go to the doctor cause i got medicine at home already, so i don't care sick or not i'm gonna have to go to school tmrw, and maybe cough infront of the snw teacher so i get an excuse, cause im not fully well yet.

2011-05-30T05:04:00.000-07:00

2011-05-25T02:24:00.000-07:00

Sometimes it's just embarrassing when you have problems, but you can't tell anyone. What's wrong with me? I've been lazy to go to school, i don't care if i'm alone, really so i can just go home. Think when i was young, i love school so much that now i'm giving up. I used to love school very much, cause my friends are amazing, but what suck is that no one is keeping in touch with me, or am i just being a selfish person for not meeting them. hmmm, I wish this is my personal diary so i can just type this without people reading it. I'm just too lazy to write on my diary, pages are left blank. Or maybe i should stop being so lazy and just go for it. Maybe i should stop being what people want me to be, stop being a person who just follow people around, maybe it's time to stand up for myself, i'm 18 i'm old enough, maybe i should just start saying Fuck you to people, hahaha, i mean 'NO' to people. Maybe i should start learing, studying. Should stop being a coward whose always afraid that people are gonna talk, always afraid of being called a dog, I was called a dog once, for being such a coward, nobody knows the real me. I hate showing people, i love myself now, so what if i'm plus size or whatever you want to call it, so what if i'm a picky eater, so fucking what if i'm always the one stuck with this conditions on my skin, no one know, excapt for my awesome sister. She has problems with her school. For what do i have to tell people about them, it's fine if i'm not the important person. It's fine, i'm used to it. and myabe i should start keeping in touch with my old bestfriend whose now super gorgeous and change, whose now ms popular. She's nice to me asking me to meet her and everything, but i'm the selfish one who dosent want too, why? maybe because i'm embarrassed? Look at me now and look at you. SO MUCH DIFFERENT. sigh, i used to be those people who are into lesson, who are into stuff for school, WTF have i become I use to not be LAZY. maybe i should start changing like now onwards. I don't know why am i blabbering stuff on my blog, too lazy to write on my baby, too lazy to talk to people about stuff, i'm not those people who tell people stuff. I trust only some. For what should i start telling people now that my family are having problems? That my grandma is a pitiful person. No, i don't think they would be interested. cause i'm a super boring person who just follow people around and keep quiet all the time and the person whose not one of those girls. I'm not really that smart so when i don't answer that means i don't freaking unerstand it. I'm dumb, I'm always the dumbest person among my friends, i'm not smart so stop trying to act so smart infront of me, it's disgusting, i'm sorry if i don't contribute to stuff cause maybe i just don't understand it, i don't use those big big words okay, so stop looking at me when i don't contribute, i'm dumb. I'm just not like them. I keep my stuff to myself. I shut up. I know when to shut up. I should stop, no i'm not pms-ing, i'm not having my period. I'm just wondering what's wrong with me.... that's all, sorry if i bore you guys, wait i don't have to it's my blog. I'm gonna stop now, cause i'm just typing and listening to songs without thinking at all.

Perfect Dream

2011-05-22T01:40:00.000-07:00

I tweeted yesterday that i had this perfect dream ever ever ever ^^ yes, it's true, This special dream was so perfect that when i finally woke up and was damn sad, but too bad that it's just a dream. :( The guy is none other than Lee Chang Sun.

2011-05-20T07:33:00.001-07:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

PAYS BACK A BITCH

2011-05-20T05:52:00.000-07:00

SICK AND TIRED

2011-05-19T07:57:00.000-07:00

Sigh, sister being a bitch again, she always is. Fikir tentang diri sendiri, she is also your grandmother. Help abit also cannot? I also got project submission tomorrow, you think you're the ONLY one who have things to do?! I had to do my research just now, called courts, LG, you don't understand a single thing but yet I still can fetch nenek, give her food to eat. Now you're mad at me?! Like WTF? grow up? I'm like older than you. Your calling me all those vulgarities and such, what's the point? I don't really give a damn. You are venting out your anger on twitter and trying to make me look like the bad guy. SICK AND TIRED. Just really hope that one day your children, IF la you ever get married, IF la someone really crazy sees you as a person, IF la you get PRETTIER, HOPE you suffer. I don't really love you. ^^

2011-05-19T01:16:00.000-07:00

Issit normal for me to feel like that? I mean, i want to talk it here but it will sound like i'm being childish or something. It will sound stupid. It's normal right for a girl like me to feel that right? Would you be?

Anyway I think i finally like really learn somthing for school. PR the topic about media, I actually listened to Ms Nair. Well, for me I think she's one of those teachers who actually TEACH us.

trip to johor

2011-05-18T05:45:00.000-07:00

Went malaysia yesterday with family took the bus cause we always do that went going to johor dad lazy to drive. BELIEVE OR NOT WE HAVE TO QUEUE FOR 2 HOURS JUST TO GET INTO JOHOR, WE HAVE NEVER NEVER NEVER SEEN SUCH A LONG QUEUE BEFORE, THEY HAVE THIS ''NEW SYSTEM'' LIKE HELLO, WE WERE PLANNING TO HAVE OUR BREAKFAST THERE BUT LASTLY IT WAS LUNCH TIME, THE SERVICE THERE HAVE GONE HAVE NEVER CHANGE FOREVER RUDE AS ALWAYS. _I_, REALLY IM STILL FREAKING FURIOUS WITH THEIR STAFF, SHOW SOME RESPECT, WE GO TO YOUR COUTRY WE ARE GIVING YOU OUR MONEY IDIOTS, GO LEARN SOME MORALE STUPID PEOPLE. YOUR SERVICE SUCK AND WILL ALWAYS DO! RUDE TO MY MOM. RUDE TO ME. RUDE MALAY OFFICER, PAKAI TUDUNG TAPI OTAK TKDE! KURANG AJAR, SERIOUSLY. I REALLY REALLY HOPE YOU HEARD ME SAYING SHIT AT YOUR BACK! DA LA NK KENA QUEUE FOR 2 HOURS AND YOU ARE FUCKING RUDE BITCH.
Their service will always suck and my stupid period have to come today i cramping the whole time. I hate myself yesterday, I was being rude to mom. BUT in the end i was alright, luckily i had a good time yesterday, ATE SO MUCH, was so full. Cannot really eat already. After that had to pick up granny from my stupid uncle's place, it's not even 24 hours and you want us to pick her up ready. Really?! I didn't even look at my old uncle. HOPE YOU HEAR WHAT I SAY YESTERDAY!

Pretty Pictures Time!

2011-05-12T03:15:00.000-07:00

Hahaha, so true!

So pretttyyyyyy...

Cannot Cannot wait for my hair to grow longer, longer, longer so please hair do me a favour and grow fast, i no longer want fringe. So please grow grow grow fast fast. ^^

2011-05-10T08:49:00.001-07:00

CBB

on what you think. :)

Happy Mother's Day

2011-05-08T03:02:00.000-07:00

a simple celebration

for the most Beautiful person on earth!

I love you mama. :)

p.s: I had the most wonderful dream ever today! I'm loving it.

2011-05-06T08:11:00.001-07:00

2011-05-06T08:04:00.000-07:00

caught Thor with the usual, well I LOVE THE MOVIE, i don't know about the rest, but the movie is awesome! the guy is a great actor and so hot! LOL, blue eyes! lovely.... I cannot stop laughing. The movie is just funny, but i want to know if he got to meet the girl again.

Whatever it is the mobvie deserve a 10/10! :D

Today school was not normal, i was alone. hahaha, well not exactly alone there's farhan, zaim and fishy and qayuum! they accompanied me today and so was dumbshit? hahaha, she texted me the whole time. hahaha. During POM, ms elfa was discussing about projects we were suppose to seat in groups so sadly i sat alone, dunno what to do. So qayuum, farhan and zaim ask me to seat with them. hahaha, felt appreciated. hahahaha, then ms elfa talk about the project she say she want to see the draft on monday, so guys be ready, and talk to me about the worksheet me, reb, alex and carrie did, said we did a good job and she continue to explain, so that was it, went back home, ate then nap till 5 and watch music bank.

My sister told me about her new poly life, after she told me about it now im having second thought about going in poly. I mean i know it's about future and everything but younger people can be scary. They don't listen to her cause she was in ITE? but get this she was correct and they were wrong! HAH! but nobody listen to her, mentang mentang la from O level. Not gonna explain anymore, so bye. :)

2011-05-04T07:13:00.000-07:00

Think i maybe slow, but tangled is one of the sweetest movie i ever seen. I wish my birthday my family or friends would do those paper lantern for me. hehehe, i wish. So i can make a thousand wishes, and the guy in the movie is like awwww, can i just go inside the movie and be rapunzel, i mean we are the same age. :D My second favorite movie of all i time, i think. Of course the first would be Burlesque.

That's it i'm gonna grow my hair that long and wait for my rider. HAHAHAHAHAHA, well i can still dream though. :)

SISTAR 19 (씨스타19) - Ma Boy (마보이) [1080p HD]

2011-05-03T08:51:00.000-07:00

sorry

2011-05-03T05:38:00.000-07:00

MAMA, DIYANAH SORRY FOR TODAY. :(

2011-05-01T21:28:00.000-07:00

110428 [MV] 2 P M - Take Off

2011-04-29T08:16:00.000-07:00

2011-04-29T06:18:00.000-07:00

Gorgeous dress! So fairy-tale do come true for some people.

PARK BOM - DON'T CRY (Acoustic Ver. - Live Session)

2011-04-29T05:59:00.000-07:00

2011-04-27T06:54:00.000-07:00

2011-04-27T00:17:00.000-07:00

Super long post, deleted.

MV HQ | Jay Park (박재범) ft. Dok2 (도끼) - Abandoned [Mini Album 'Take A Dee...

2011-04-26T09:37:00.000-07:00

B1A4 (비원에이포) - OK [1080p HD]

2011-04-24T07:54:00.000-07:00

2011-04-24T07:42:00.000-07:00

i want you so bad. :'(

Park Bom

2011-04-23T23:52:00.000-07:00

When I grow up I want to be like her. hehehehe

PARK BOM - DON'T CRY M/V [HD]

2011-04-20T23:54:00.000-07:00

2011-04-19T05:29:00.001-07:00

2011-04-18T06:42:00.001-07:00

Lee Joon

2011-04-17T03:25:00.001-07:00

MBLAQ (엠블랙) - YOUR LUV | (Japanese) Official Music Video | PV

2011-04-17T03:25:00.000-07:00

Can I?

2011-04-14T02:37:00.000-07:00

Can I have my old weight back please, if it ever happen i'll be the happiest girl ever.

Finally!

2011-04-13T00:11:00.000-07:00

Finally get to eat Manhattan Fish & Chips! Me and Izora have been like craving for it for months. Finally got it. 맛있는!!

First day of school

2011-04-11T06:43:00.000-07:00

Holiday is finally oveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer. I miss my classmates, well most of them. HAHA, I miss rebecca lam jia xin very much. hahaha, if you ever read this, yes I miss ya. Anyway start school only and was late hahaha, thanks to ehem, nehh just kidding. :) Need to go school on time or earlier now cause the teachers are like strict already. Time table suck ttm, but kinda excited to start learning, maybe? But starting at 8 like almost everyday, -___- plsssssss laaaaa, give us chance to sleep more. Last term was so slack. Anyway whatever it is im so gonna work harder this year, : ) ) ) ) maybe not being 'me' anymore. ahahaha.

Played bean boozled with some of the classmates and ppl i dont know, well not really playing we just choose what we want to eat. I didnt dare to eat, well this box is abit different there is no black pepper and plum, pencil shavings and top banana. I did try thr toothpaste though, and the white and both times got coconut. So lucky? Didnt really dare to eat the rest, hehehehe. But when my classmates eat, the smell is lke yuck! :D

went to ikea with my girls ( shyryn & izora) had so much fun there, really we laugh, talk and window shopping, but wearing uniform. I really really want my own room now, I want to decorate my room, well if i can't have my own room atleast let my just share with my awesome sister because the first sister is a pig, hahaha.

Anyway, I feel like updating my blog everyday (if I can) Study harder this term (since ive improve the last term) annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd __ ______ ____ this term, no more spending money on stuff ready (too many kpop coming this year) hmmmmm, and maybe lose some weight? Ive been saying this for how many years now but nothing happen so I don't know, see first? HAH! Cause you just can't separate junk food from me that easily, and my mom always cook the food I LOVE <3 :) ) ) ) )

something different

2011-04-11T05:48:00.000-07:00

I feel like doing something different with my hair, i don't want to cut it this hair is the longest hair i ever had, so no cutting. Just the fringe is irritating sometimes, put to the side, let go then booooo. hahaha, boring! I dont really like tying my hair when im outside even though if its super hot. haha, i just dunno why, im weird.

The hair length is to die for! Cannot wait till my hair this super long!

See how she do her fringe I want to learn how to do that.

hmm, thousand of hairstyles I really really want to try, maybe I should lose some weight first? Cause this girls in the pictures are super skinny....... hmmmm maybe.....

Last day of holiday

2011-04-10T00:56:00.000-07:00

Holiday is finally over! It wasn't that bad, it kinda awesome also. :D

Happy Birthday Shyryn!

2011-04-03T09:39:00.000-07:00

Universal Studio with the most AWESOME person on earth.

2011-04-03T01:06:00.000-07:00

Went to Universal Studio with my awesome sister Nurul Afiqah for FREE cause she work there, and maybe one day ill be working with her (maybe) Woke up 8am to check resluts first, done checking im fine with my results cause i have improve, i want to talk some kurang ajar stuff here but the people might read so skip...
We were wearing Big bang shirt and same bags but different colour. :D hehehe
After reaching I was suppose to go in first she have to go in the staff entry, while I was waiting for her Iwas looking at my phone suddenly theres this big hands touch my head and I was shock turn around kungfu panda was there. It was kinda scary. haha!
Anyway universal studio damn fun! Too lazy to tell the whole amazing things there, you have to go to find out for yourself. ;p The rides were fun and abit scary, I scream alot of time and my sister was laughing at me.

I was tired. :)

Gloria ;)

I like this guy. He look exactly like Brendan Fraser from the mummy.

He call me and my sister Beautiful girls. His also super tall.

The merry go round which me and my sister is the noisiest there.

the scary kungfu panda, took pictures with him.

She's very very pretty.

Some pictures can't be uploaded, oh well, if you want to see look at my facebook.
Tip if you want to go uss, DO NOT WEAR REALLY NICE CLOTHES, clothes like you going to town or somthing, its really really hot there.

2011-03-28T07:52:00.000-07:00

Today was so much fun, finally i'm out of the house after 10 days at home, sick. Everyone know I got a very bad sore eyes, the pain! OMG! I WAS SO SCARED THAT ILL GO BLIND! but thankfully everything is fine now, though abit red only. IM SUPER DUPER HAPPY! HEHEHEHEHE. Anyways went k-box with sister, we went to somerset! so far. Went there cause there's IU and 2ne1, it hurts. hahahhaa. LOVE EVERY MINUTE! MY SISTER IS THE BEST! LOVE HER TO THE MAX MAX MAX MAX. ;D

NEXT UP UNIVERSAL STUDIO WITH MY SUPER BFF THIS WED. ;)

2011-03-20T06:15:00.000-07:00

MY EYES IS GETTING WORST, MY EYE HURT.

THOUGHT PUTTING IN EYEDROP WONT HURT, BUT IT DOES.

MY EYE IS TORTURING ME, I CANNOT SLEEP WELL.

IT KEEP TEARING UP.

THE DOCTOR GAVE ME EYE CREAM, BUT NOT FOR OUTSIDE MY EYE, ITS FOR THE INSIDE MY EYE, NOW HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO PUT CREAM IN MY EYE!

FUCK IT, SERIOUSLY. :(

PLEASE HEAL SOON. PLEASE. PLEASE. PLEASE. PLEASE. ;'(

IF NOT THIS IS SERIOUSLY THE WORST HOILDAY EVER!

EVER AND EVER AND EVER!

Tired of being sick!

2011-03-18T08:56:00.000-07:00

After recovering from sore throat, flu and a terrible headache for how many days now I GOT SORE EYES! So annoying. Suppose to go out today to meet my secondary school girls after so long and I got sore eyes! Effing irritating! Woke this morning looking like someone punch my eye and look like one of my eye is crying, it's watery. Did not go to the dotcor, told my dad and mom to save their money.

Look at it! Please heal faster. ;D

oh well, Went out with this group of people the other day to celebrate the malay guy in the black shirt advance birthday. :D It was fun cause they are funny people. Though I didn't sing, talk much but still I enjoyed myself. hehehe, I laugh alot though..

Whatever it is this people are great friends. Next time I try to be more 'fun'. hahahaha! :D

2011-03-17T02:25:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Zaim!

2011-03-12T00:08:00.000-08:00

Exams are over! Holidays are in, but what am I gonna do during my hoilday? I got no idea!

2011-03-06T04:21:00.000-08:00

Say whatever you want. Just one thing I dont give a fuck what you think bitch. :D

So what if I LOVE kpop? You don't have a clue how much I feel like smacking you face right now.

Miss Nine

2011-03-03T06:19:00.000-08:00

I am still missing my cat. :'(
I miss Nine....

2011-03-02T04:51:00.000-08:00

First of all I want to wish Izora a

Happy Happy Birthday. ;)

Hope you love both of my present and the birthday card. ^^

Now, to start off the day. Didn't follow them to seoul garden to celebrate Izora birthday. Texted Izora to say sorry. :) Hope you had fun though.

When back home to do the normal stuff.... did not study, planning to start after blogging. Watch ‘Haeundae', cried watching it. The story was so very sad. )':

After that was planning to study but then was too curious about the last episode of dream high had to watch it. Love the show a whole lot! and specially the guy singing at my blog. :D

my new crush now. ;) praying you'll come to Singapore for a fan meet. teehee.